But we wait, love
past & then wave:
each one mudded, hopeless
it held us here.
Silence is chosen: noise
chooses us. No, sound
cry, up, start to
build – it does happen:
despair talking, floating open
away bright into this
& lighting it. Here
is the grave secret:
Waste, loss, loss, nothing
can repair us. Loathingness
& a brief self-maiming
silently, a buggery, please.
The bus draws off.
The light goes red.
It is windy, dark
forgotten, the colours rising
as through dark windows
something fades. The ink
can't record everything. Dear
this is near it
already perfected & enfolded
closed, still, sweet, sorrow
oh! I feel that
the sense of death
Love is near faded.
Oh I wait! Something
sweet, unforgotten, grave, that
will excuse us all.
& the sky opens out where
no reason to hope it isn't anything but
to call out so clear
no one will know.
One experience turns
as day starts to dip in &
no one really knows much more. Faint voices
above on the sign, dark on the wet road where
they made us all. They
slowly fell. He stood above it
like an open bird's bill
for there can't be any new impediments.
The clearing —
& sense rises up somewhere.
We are lovely, & we rest, ignorant.
We shall walk unharmed
you know, like we can't be.
I wrote no poems.
It's like that:
the words might save the place but they'll have to go louder.
Not until you've forgotten:
this is rain, this is sudden appearance.
I was the light shining through that dew
too, a love, a moving to
& in the silence
in half-light
sweet luscious ooze within the silent wood.
The whole lot resolves to nothing else more, now does it?
It is the light itself
to treat such loss. We burnt
that composes us.
Like.
Eating an ice-cream I was at peace & at one.
They talk of truth or lies, or of
"antel' alba sa, la luna".
They don't fit simply into words.
Not from devotion but from despair, to another night, another night, another day.
No poem, no pattern of it
in the darkness.
The good result of its completion
will excuse us all.
What we love we hold—
flesh is clumsy but we're not:
every time we're different, better every
time, oh like rain, like muddy puddles
under yellow lights.
Believe in nothing —
be swept over by clouds, birds
swept up, it must be
as if
nothing is empty
only that
the sky opens out
where there's no reason to hope it isn't anything
& call out so clear.
Delicious dear white page, oh reader, what
fibrous blank net can hold us now?
I see a man whose head is made of stone.
I see nothing in the dark.
No one will know.
One experience turns into another
as day starts to dip in &
no one really knows much more. Faint voices
above are the signs, or dark red stains on the wet road where
they made us all. They
bore us into it dumb but so loud.
We slowly fell
crossed over some line.
There can't be any new impediment.
Under the trees a heavy moisture
& sense rises up somewhere else.
It is the forest, the dark one.
We are lonely, & we rest, ignorant
that we are given what will nourish us.
We walk unharmed
you know, like we can't be.
I wrote no poem.
It's like that:
these words might save the place, louder
but not until we've forgotten:
this rain, this sudden
appearance
of angels hidden in the light
shining through that dew
too, a loss, a moving to
& in the silence
in half-light
honey oozing, silently within the wood.
Death, it is
best & least, some friendship awakening.
The whole lot resolves to nothing more, but
isn't it? What was in that light itself?
The energies, shifting, are disease:
disease, what is that immeasurable light?
Slowly we are thus consumed;
the broken stones that compose us
compare us
like old banal's dear empty turn.
Please talk of truth or lies or of
loss, of silence, truth.
Forgive? Forgive it nothing, no, mouths
alone, always alone
the places we're on swept off, like
like dirty waves.
What we are brought to is this:
just silence
untranslatability flowing
slowly like flesh
the flowering, green
immense & dumb.
You will have to start again.
It's what we lost
at the very dawn, la luna.
She will come to us tonight.
Things don't fit, follow
they are just lost. We age
not from any devotion, despair
no poem, pattern of it
just it
in the darkness
completing us
again in the night when stars are blind
& your absence shines
in the distance, over the hills.
We rest in this dark
& are open to all & nothing
like a dead baby which
the good result of its completion
will excuse us all
here, at this place
never
again never.
Here is the end of loss, a limit. There is some,